Too much?

I don't know if it's the act of getting this out or what, but I keep thinking of things to write about. I have little flashes of "oh that would be a good story to tell" or "ooo I should write that down", but I'm only one man. Plus I can't really write very easily at home since the wife doesn't know I'm doing this. So I'm writing all this at work.

In my life so far I've slept with... *counting in my head* eight women. That's actual intercourse. I lost my virginity when I was 18. Fuck that seems late. I mean there were definitely women I wanted to lose it to before then LOL but I never got/took the opportunity. I've always been shy around women. Well shy in regards to anything intimate. Once I warm up I'm not shy of course, but it's cumbersome until then; and I don't really know why. I have very high self-esteem but I'm not arrogant, I'm very secure in myself despite being overweight.

I've got so many things I could write that I'm actually having trouble finding something specific that fits here. Maybe I shouldn't do that. Do you care? Do you have a preference to order here? I'll probably overlap things but I suppose it wouldn't hurt reading them twice....

So I'm "semi-bi". You're probably wondering, "what the hell? You can't be semi-bi. You either like guys AND girls, or just one." Welllllllllllllllllllll you're mostly right. I don't find guys attractive the same way I do women. I don't want to cuddle with guys, or kiss them, or lick them. Well, I only like to lick one part LOL. See, I like giving blowjobs. I just always have. I don't really care if you think that's gross. I don't judge what you like. Well I might, but I'd be nice about it. OK, I WILL judge what you like but I WILL be nice if I don't like it. People have enough problems without worrying if they like something "weird". Some people like rubbing the junk on balloons. I don't get it, but I don't have to. As long as no one is forcing them then they should get a 1000ct box of goddamn balloons and cum all over them.

OK back to sucking cock. It started in high school and I'll be honest, I didn't do it nearly as much as I wanted to. Confession: I'm a tiny bit of a slut for cock. What I mean by that is that I'll suck all night long if I can. You could line up a bunch of guys outside the room and I'd blow them one at a time. More than one at a time if they're comfortable with that. It's funny, I started noticing it when I'd watch porn with friends. Yes, guys do do that when they're young. Other guys didn't like cumshots or really seeing the star's dick on screen. I never understood that. For me, it was just part of the whole thing so why would you NOT want to see it???

Anyways, my first guy was a friend in high school. Nelson. No real names. He was a year younger than me. So he spent the night, a pretty common occurrence. I put on Night Nurses 3. It has one of the best blowjob scenes I've ever seen. You actually get to watch the guy get hard. That's really rare in porn. So we're both watch, and getting horny. The BJ scene comes on and after a couple of minutes I say something about how good that looks and he agrees. Now I know what I'm trying to do but I'm soooooooooo fucking nervous about it. I mean I have no idea how he's going to react or if he's going to want to stop being my friend, but I was really really horny and wanted to try. No, I NEEDED to try. I couldn't stand it anymore. So I very hesitantly asked him if he'd like to try that and he very quickly said "hell yeah I want a girl to do that to me". I was a little disheartened to say the least, but I tried one more time. I said, "well I'm not a girl, but I'd be happy to do that to you."

Then the most nerve-racking 3 minutes of my life. I know because I watched the clock and it seemed to stop. If he said no, our friendship could be over. He didn't say no. He said yes! My cock just about exploded when he said that LOL. I was on my bed and he was on the floor. We kind of joked about where we should do it and decided on him being on the bed and me kneeling on the floor. So he got up and I could definitely see he was VERY hard. He sat down on the bed and pulled his shorts off. I asked him if he wanted me to leave the TV on but he said no. I could see him pretty clearly though by the moonlight coming in through the window. LOL it was right on his dick. I kneeled down by the side of the bed as he was laying down along the edge. I wrapped my fingers around him and that was the first time I touched someone else's dick. It was hot and I could feel him throb. I moved my head down and slid my lips over his head. I managed to get about three quarters of him in my mouth before I had to pull off. I didn't get deep throating down until a few months later LOL. So I'm bobbing my head up and down his cock while my hand strokes his shaft. I lasted about 5 minutes before my arm started to hurt, but I persevered! I don't think he lasted much more than 7 minutes or so. He told me he was going to cum so I could take my mouth off him, but I wanted it. I wanted to taste and swallow his cum. God I was fucking horny. I would have cum immediately if I had bothered to touch my own dick. He arched his back, groaned, and his first spurt hit the back of my throat. He shot 3 more times before slowing down. Being my first time I wasn't quite used to trying to swallow while I was still sucking, so I lost some of his cum out of the corners of my mouth. I don't think he minded though.... After he was done shooting I kept sucking and licking him until he got too sensitive for me to keep going. He said thanks and I said he was welcome, both in a fairly awkward tone. Well we didn't know how we were supposed to act after that. We went to bed. Well HE went to bed, I went to the bathroom and basically coated the whole room in cum. OK that may be an exaggeration. I came in the sink. It was a lot though.

I guess we figured out how we were supposed to act after that awkward ending the night before. My parents and sibling were out of town at a sporting event all the next day. I swallowed his cum 4 more times in just that morning alone LOL. That's another story though....