Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Talking to Strangers

I'm sitting here at work, completely unmotivated to do anything. I've read some sites, watched some videos, gotten a couple of things done... I'm just not feeling it today. You know what I like? An audience. I like someone to tell me that what I'm doing is useful or meaningful in some way. I'm staring at open windows of documents and don't want anything to do with them. Normally when I'm like this I'll log on to Yahoo Messenger or something and find someone to talk with. Of course that's MUCH more difficult since their rooms were shut down. Fuckers. Ass-face, monkey cock gobblers. Fuck. Really? God those rooms were awesome. There's nothing else like them.

I tried a few other sites but it wasn't nearly the same. It was always much harder to actually talk to someone. I can get on cam4.com. That's a great site. Love the cams. Although, my chat keeps getting disabled "for offensive language." I'm watching a woman shove a dildo up her pussy, and my "chat" is "offensive"? I don't really know how that makes any sense. I'm not mean or racist or anything along those lines. So what do I do? I make a new screenname. Of course I have to set up anothed fake email first and then verify the screenname after they email my fake account. Kind of a pain in the ass to talk to people. Plus then I lose all the users I've favorited and have to revisit them all again to add them to the new account.

You might be wondering why I want to talk to other people. I'll be honest, most of the time it's about sex LOL. I enjoy erotic chat very much with people of both genders. It's fun and entertaining. What? You think it's the same as cheating on my wife? Welllllllll I can understand that. It makes sense. Even if I'm not putting my dipstick in someone else's reservoir, I'm still thinking about it. You have a point, and I don't tell my wife about those conversations. I usually use the excitement I feel on her though; if I don't shoot it down the toilet at work anyway... That really doesn't make it any better, I know. She and I have talked about her.... lack of imagination before. She does NOT sext very well. She says she doesn't know what to say. I think it might be that she's afraid of what I'll think about what she might say, which is silly. Silly though it may be, it might still be true. So I do what I can to put her at ease and show her that I'll never be offended at what she might want. Offended or any other bad connotation.

For example, the only thing I can get out of her that she wants to try is being tied up. Now tying her up has no appeal for me. The idea of forcing someone into anything sexual makes me angry and makes my dick soft. I literally couldn't rape anyone. Ever. She doesn't want to be forced though from what I understand. She just wants to be tied up so she's at my mercy. It still doesn't turn me on but I'd do it for her. I need ideas though. I've asked her, "What do you envision or imagine when you think about being tied up?" I get, "Nothing. I just want to try it." What the fuck? How does that help me figure it out? Spread-eagled, hands behind back, hog-tied, hands above head but legs free...? I've got a lot of ideas but I need a bit more direction from her. I can't get it though. So I haven't done it yet. I know she might be leaving it all to me as part of the fun, but she could at least tell me that. She knows I don't do well with the "I'm not going to tell you because you should already know" thing. I give a big "fuck you" and forget about it when that gets played.

So I get online and talk to people. I've gotten some good ideas over the years. Before I got married I met some very interesting people too. Well, I've "met" alot since I got married as well LOL. Just not MET met them. I enjoy talking about other people's experiences as well. I have a couple questions I LOVE to ask.
  1. What is the worst sexual experience you've ever had?
  2. What is the most shameful sexual and non-sexual experience you've ever had?
  3. What is the weirdest place you've ever had sex?
  4. What is the absolute best sex you've ever had, and where was it?
Those may sound like typical questions, but I think they can be very interesting. #1 is usually very diverse, and I've NEVER had anyone say their first experience was the worst. #2 is very telling about a person. It tells me how low they've been willing to go, even though they knew it would be bad/hurtful to them. I mean shameful! Not bad, not fake; shameful. The kind of experience that makes you feel guilty when you remember it; that makes you feel a little queasy to know you did it. #3 is also telling. It may or may not be the person's idea. It could have been their partner that wanted to sneak into the circus tent to fuck in the center ring, but THEY WENT ALONG WITH IT. So it tells me more about that person too. #4 is kind of a pick-me-up after I've asked these downer questions. Recalling the best sex you've ever had is never a bad thing, and makes you feel better. Puts a smile on your face. I don't push them. I let them tell me what they want; and they don't even have to answer of course. Plus I don't just blurt them out. The questions come out through the conversation, if it happens to go that way. People doing something of their own free will is so much better than being forced or chided or tricked. If a woman tells me she wants to get on cam and strip for me, to me that's a MUCH bigger turn on than if I have to beg and beg and beg. I can do some playful begging but there's a point when she really doesn't want to do it and you might just wear her down. I don't want that. It makes me feel bad.

So I might as well answer my own questions.... I can never stay on topic.
  1. Worst would be... I met a guy in college that really wanted to try getting sucked by a guy. He was bicurious but hadn't done anything. We got to my apt and he asked if he could watch some porn since he was really nervous. I sat him down at my desk and got him acquanted with the 30+GB of porn I had at the time. He was hard and I started in on him. Got his pants off and everything. So I blew him for about 3 minutes before he started going soft. I tried a couple things but he was completely soft. I looked up and he was crying... Eventually he said he'd tried a couple BJs from girls but they had ended up the same way so he thought maybe a guy would be different. Nice. I didn't see him again (his choice).
  2. Shameful sexual experience would be.... Being mean to a woman I dated when I was 18. She was 32 and on anti-depression medication. I didn't KNOW she was on the medication. It made her VERRRRY horny. Of course I didn't know it was the medication LOL, I just thought it was her. One morning she woke me up around 4:30am trying to get me to finger her. This was after a night of fucking. I was very tired and I was pretty angry. I yelled at her. I feel like an asshole every time I think about it. I'm not "that guy". Non-sexual shameful thing.... I broke a girl's lunchbox in elementary school. That's it. I didn't like her and I broke it. I know, not too much there.
  3. Weirdest place to have sex would have to be The Haunted Mansion ride at Disney World. My g/f at the time sat on my lap with my cock buried inside her most of the way through the ride. She rode me as much as possible when the seats weren't facing eachother LOL.
  4. Best sex ever... Hmmmmm... I've had a lot of great sex, but I'll rank it by the sex that turned me on the most. I mean sticking my dick in something hot and wet is never bad, so by definition ALL sex is good. So I have to go by the sex that had my blood pumping the most. That would have to be a late-night session with the same girl from The Haunted Mansion ride. Her and 3 of her girl friends were visiting me and staying with me. I was in college so they were all sleeping in my room since there wasn't anywhere else in the apt. My girlfriend and one of her friends were in bed with me (sleeping, you pervs *wink*) and the other two were on blankets, cushions, and sleeping bags on the floor. I woke up around 2am with a hardon that was pushing between my girl's legs. I was against the wall on my side and she was in front of me, spooning me. The other woman was spooning her and I could see in the near dark that my girl was getting a big handful of her friend's boob in her sleep. Every guy out there has thought about this and probably cum over it. It didn't help my boner. I started pushing against my girlfriend and she responded, much to my delight. I ended up pulling the crotch of her shorts and panties aside, as well as pulling my shorts down so I could slide my cock into her. We fucked very slowly and quietly for 20mins or so before I came in her. I was fucking close to delirium by the time we were done. Right now I'm hard just remembering it. Fuck that was an amazing thing.
So there you have it. My answers. Anyone want to share theirs?

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